Forty-two years is a lot of time given to me so far by the Great Creator of life. It’s quite a privilege to be here on earth even if some days I feel dull and insignificant.
At one point, God in His Infinite wisdom decided that it’s time for certain souls to inhabit physical bodies to experience life as a human being. You and I are born to human parents under life circumstances we couldn’t have anticipated.
It feels like we don’t have a choice. Some of us feels miserable, others grateful, while the great majority are very confused.
Over the years I’ve had some serious moments when I asked, “Why am I here?” “What’s the point of being born in a planet plagued with discord and suffering?”. I’ll get discouraged. I’ll sulk for days. Yet somehow deep inside of me there is a glow of hope of inspiration and a knowing that one day it will all make sense.
I’ve always felt that we are intelligent souls, with built-in navigation system to direct us towards every step of life. This is to fulfill that master plan our Creator has designed for the human race— individually and collectively. It’s like we were sent with a program/ software that predetermines in a sense how to fulfill the best version of our lives. But it isn’t set in stone because of free will—the greatest gift endowed to man as God’s creatures.
We forget who we truly are upon our entry into this world. It sucks. Isn’t it much easier to recall everything on day one to guarantee success and save us so much heartache in our lifetime? Why oh why is life so hard?
Life is a process and we must forget in order to work towards remembering. To tap into this forgotten “life map”, we must “reconnect” with the Divine through prayer, meditation, and other forms of spiritual practice. They’re meant to awaken our souls and open up to invisible guidance to lead us to the right path and be in alignment with the will of God.
We are meant to live meaningful lives as God’s co-creators. There is power in our choices to create the life we wanted, with God on our side or without. Will it make a difference? My understanding is that if we live more consciously and in recognition that there is a Higher Power overseeing us, we are more at peace knowing that we’re going to be okay and not lose that joy of living. On the contrary, if we decide to move on without God’s guidance, we’re left on our own like a blind man stubbornly walking towards an unknown path, oblivious to the dangers lurking ahead, more likely to get hurt and suffer more.
I’ve had my share of stubbornness over the years and I’ve paid dearly for them. I suffered feeling so much guilt and shame. Yet in these temporary deviations from God’s plan for my life, I knew there is always love and forgiveness. I feel it every single time. It gives me the strength to move on and try again.
My life is still unfolding. I pray that I will live a longer life in order to see more wonders of God’s hand in my life. I know I am on the right path as I toiled for so many years to understand His will for me. Yet I still struggle like so many of you. It’s all part of the process.
One thing I know for sure is that I’m gonna be okay. Life is beautiful and no matter my choices, I am always loved. I have to remember that and remind myself daily of that beautiful promise.